.
"Happiness" is the name of the horse. An obstinate fellow, with his own private schedule of when he is likely to go or stop or accept food or show affection/disinterest. It was tempting to call his name ironic, but upon further consideration it seemed rather fitting.
Gentleman Jack shelled out some serious change to join an equestrian club. And now his ass hurts. An unfair exchange in hindsight (there is a loose pun in there somewhere) but it was restlessness which prodded the decision, and there shall be no regrets. It will return large dividends in the long run, no doubt.
In other news, Tommy Lee Jones has an EXCELLENT commercial running in Japan wherein he seems to be running late for work, downs a can of Boss(TM) Coffee Drink, and steam starts shooting from his ears as he makes his way down the street. Did I say excellent? I meant the most brilliant ad ever.
The campaign also includes ads plastered on vending machines, which are stationed everywhere in Japan, imagine the frequency of fire-hydrants and traffic lights and you've almost got it. The familiar visage is a brusk reminder of home--and of Twin Sisters', waiting tables, demotions, the 0-niner clientele. (cuss!) (spit!)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Clean Routine
Waking up early to write has been my latest addition to the routine, but I do not keep my apartment spotless, and unless everything is "in it's right place" I have difficulty working.
Instead of cleaning, I do what Bob calls morning junk.
Then if I make it out to the coffee place, I piddle in my journal.
This is all noise. Distraction. Distrust of the process, of self. Noise.
I thought I might exorcise it by putting it down on HTML.
Compiling lists of songs to teach grammar points. I have three or four classes that could benefit from this type of thing. And it's what I wanted to do coming in, but I am a novice. Rapport seemed more pressing. Now that I've got that, it's time, I think, to exploit it for my own silly hobbies and interests. I've been researching ski resorts through the interstudentnet.
Instead of cleaning, I do what Bob calls morning junk.
Then if I make it out to the coffee place, I piddle in my journal.
This is all noise. Distraction. Distrust of the process, of self. Noise.
I thought I might exorcise it by putting it down on HTML.
Compiling lists of songs to teach grammar points. I have three or four classes that could benefit from this type of thing. And it's what I wanted to do coming in, but I am a novice. Rapport seemed more pressing. Now that I've got that, it's time, I think, to exploit it for my own silly hobbies and interests. I've been researching ski resorts through the interstudentnet.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
aesthetic articulation on a morning
I have been looking at all the photographs I've taken in the past several months and, by and large, have noticed a particular aesthetic. Clean, right angles. Empty fields of vision. Plenty of vacated space. Even the warmer colored pictures, I normally filter out a lot of the yellow and red for a kind of cool blue finish.
Similarly, my writing has been full of distances, dispassionate digressions (if we might allow some unfortunate alliteration), white space, stillness. Perhaps there is something of learning patience in this, but it is not my current reading.
In the mornings I wake early and brew coffee. I grind the beans and mix them with water in a saucepan, heating them slowly until there is only the slightest activity on the surface, and straining the dense liquid into a single cup. I eat a piece of fruit, usually a banana, and take a vitamin from a stockpile I collected at Central Market, and have had some imported to me as well so they might last much of this year. Some days I add Mozart or Beethoven, others I prefer silence. I sit and pretend that I will write something today. Most days, I compose a line or two. Others, nothing. And I pour myself into the study of Japanese, mostly composing katakana lines and memorizing simple phrases, but it is difficult to recall these phrases in practical situations. I am more likely to use the phrases, questions, and sentences that I have observed in conversation.
I stop convenience store clerks, McDonald's employees, waiters, civil servants, civilians who happen to cross my path, and I ask them how to say things. I can almost always use these.
I begin to think of my students. What I may need to do to improvise with the more advanced students when the lesson plan is beneath their abilities. What tacks I can take toward understanding when the subject matter is a little difficult or boring.
I brace myself for the cold.
And I am satisfied.
And I am quite alone.
I recall the muddled photographs and dense tomes I used to compose. Jumbled layers of narration, improperly exposed and furiously piled over and over onto a page. Mornings spent hiding from the breaths coming from the bed upstairs, rushing every word into whatever heat remained of my hastily made coffee and the sugar, collecting in the bottom of the glass, offering a thready sanguine half-hour past which I could not think.
And I was satisfied.
I was not alone.
And I honestly don't know which I prefer. There is a deep sadness buried in each. And some joy to be uncovered.
Similarly, my writing has been full of distances, dispassionate digressions (if we might allow some unfortunate alliteration), white space, stillness. Perhaps there is something of learning patience in this, but it is not my current reading.
In the mornings I wake early and brew coffee. I grind the beans and mix them with water in a saucepan, heating them slowly until there is only the slightest activity on the surface, and straining the dense liquid into a single cup. I eat a piece of fruit, usually a banana, and take a vitamin from a stockpile I collected at Central Market, and have had some imported to me as well so they might last much of this year. Some days I add Mozart or Beethoven, others I prefer silence. I sit and pretend that I will write something today. Most days, I compose a line or two. Others, nothing. And I pour myself into the study of Japanese, mostly composing katakana lines and memorizing simple phrases, but it is difficult to recall these phrases in practical situations. I am more likely to use the phrases, questions, and sentences that I have observed in conversation.
I stop convenience store clerks, McDonald's employees, waiters, civil servants, civilians who happen to cross my path, and I ask them how to say things. I can almost always use these.
I begin to think of my students. What I may need to do to improvise with the more advanced students when the lesson plan is beneath their abilities. What tacks I can take toward understanding when the subject matter is a little difficult or boring.
I brace myself for the cold.
And I am satisfied.
And I am quite alone.
I recall the muddled photographs and dense tomes I used to compose. Jumbled layers of narration, improperly exposed and furiously piled over and over onto a page. Mornings spent hiding from the breaths coming from the bed upstairs, rushing every word into whatever heat remained of my hastily made coffee and the sugar, collecting in the bottom of the glass, offering a thready sanguine half-hour past which I could not think.
And I was satisfied.
I was not alone.
And I honestly don't know which I prefer. There is a deep sadness buried in each. And some joy to be uncovered.
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